God is teaching me, breaking me, and chiseling me away as I walk this journey that He has given me. I am seeing more and more how insufficient I am and how much I need Jesus Christ in my life. Of course I need God when times are hard, and when I don’t know what to do. But I also need Him when things are good and everything seems to be going smoothly.
Travelling is showing me how selfish I am. I am learning that God’s work is bigger than my fears and anxieties, and that I need to put my needs aside for the sake of ministering to people. I am so thankful that God uses broken vessels and thorny people to show other people how much He loves them. What a privilege to know that my God loves me and wants me to become like His very own Son, Jesus Christ! It is an overwhelming thought that God allows me, a huge sinner saved by His unexplainable grace, to represent the holy name of His Son Jesus! This is a tremendous responsibility that I never ever want to take for granted.
God continues to show me that no matter how high the mountain or how low the valley, He will walk beside me. I love the promise God gives Israel in Isaiah 43:2 which says, "When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.” As a Christian, we WILL walk through waters, rivers, and fires. But if we are walking with our Father God, we WILL come through them. God is teaching me that there is nothing to fear when He is on my side, and if I can trust my Savior with my eternal destiny, surely I can trust Him with my earthly life and earthly needs. I am so thankful for the patience, gentleness, and kindness of my dear Abba Father.